I got my sleep cycle out of whack this weekend staying up late reading and then succumbing to napping both days. I managed to get up on time Monday, but overslept today. And I’m still feeling meh, unmotivated. And the dark and gloomy weather ain’t helping much.
I hadn’t been able to motivate myself to get to the grocery store on Monday, so I was out of my favorite breakfast fixins. I stopped off at Cumbies on the way into work, but they were also out of my favorite back-up breakfast foods. So I was stuck with something I really didn’t want. Blah.
On the way into the office I stumbled on the steps. I managed to catch myself and didn’t hurt myself, but there was someone having a phone conversation outside, so I had a witness to my tumble. Soooo embarrassing. So by now I’m feeling pretty put out with the number of small annoyances that have already happened and wondering, “What next??!?!”
I get to my desk and discover that I’ve left my reading glasses at home. But thankfully I have a backup pair (because of course I do, I have cheap drug store reading glasses stashed everywhere). So that didn’t count against my tally of woe for the day. But then I had friend ping me on Facebook about a problem with a mutual friend. This was just a situation I didn’t want to be in the middle of. *sighs* I let her talk it out, but damn it felt awkward.
By lunchtime I had a headache, which is unusual for me. And I was having trouble getting my brain to focus on work. Come on brain, we have to adult today! By 3:00 my headache was bad enough that I dug out the Advil, which helped with the pain but not with my focus issues. Argh, bad brain! No biscuit!
I did make it to the grocery store on the way home. I may have bought some cookie dough. For therapeutic purposes only. And I made myself do a few things around the house when I got home, to try to short circuit the “you’re useless and can’t get anything done” loop that my brain seems to be playing right now.
Baby steps and self care right now. It’s all I can do.